Derek

grunge028 @ 2002-02-20T10:37:00

2002-02-20T15:38:39Z

I HAVE A FUCKING HACKER...I SWEAR I DID NOT WRITE THAT STUFF ON PHIL LIVEJOURNAL, AND THIS PERSON HAS BEEN HACKING ON TO ME AIM AND HAS BEEN PISSING ME OFF...I SWEAR IF I FIND OUT WHO IT IS I AM GOING TO KICK THE CRAP OUT OF THIS PERSON FOR ALL THIS SHIT THAT THEY HAVE CAUSED ME...ERRRRRR

grunge028 @ 2002-01-31T20:07:00

2002-02-01T01:22:47Z

Hello
Well today was an interesting day. I had to sit threw a long day of school. Then i get a phone call from my guidence counsler saying that he changed my schedule. Now tomorrow i am not sure if i should go to his office to pick it up or wait for it to come to me. Well that is not the reason i am writing in my live journal today. The reason is, that i am pissed off at comments that people leave on my live journal without leaving there names. You can comment all you want, bad or good, but just leave your name. I just wanted to say that.

grunge028 @ 2002-01-29T21:32:00

2002-01-30T02:36:26Z

Hello
Well today i got my new schedule. I start 3rd period and get out 11th so that sucks already. I have (in this order) Global, Lunch, Sociology, Math, Earth Science, English, Soccer, English, Spanish. Yea i have an extra english class for some reason, i am going to try to drop that. So my high point of today was not the fact that i felt so awkward seeing my friends in front of school, but that i got the Nine Inch Nails dvd. Its so good, it actually feels like you are there. Later...

grunge028 @ 2002-01-27T19:47:00

2002-01-28T00:48:15Z

Hello
Sat at home all day and slept and watched the Score...

grunge028 @ 2002-01-27T00:29:00

2002-01-27T05:28:16Z

Good Evening
Today was a fun day. Today started at 10, with me waking up to Rob playing Grand Theft Auto 3. It took me about half hour to actually get up, but when i finally did Rob and I ate bagels with butter. After that back to the Playstation 2. At about 12 Will gave a call saying that Johnathen was going over his house and that they are going to come over. So at about 12 30 they made there way to my house. We sat and listen to some good albums. Then we decided to walk down to the pizza place. We ordered a pizza pie and ate it there. After we finished we walked out pf the pizza place and took about five steps and stopped and decided to play hacky sack on the cornor of some street. So were playing there for about an hour i guess. Until Johnathen hits the hack over the street on to the highway. So we all ran across the street and I jumped over the gate on to the highway and got the hack, but then i realized there was no way back up. So Johnathen jumps over and then he realized there was no way up, so we had to walk all the way around. After that we went back to my house, and started watching SLC Punk. I most of seen that movie like 10 times in the past 3 days. As soon as that movie was over Johnathen, Will, and Rob left. I had to start getting ready to go over Danny's house because my family was going and Will's family was going. So at about 7 I go to Danny's and of course see Will again. So Will, Danny, and I were wrestling. We all took turns and of course Danny never won a match. Then we started playing this really fun board game called Scatogories. Then we left. So now i am sitting in my Desolate room. My lite in my room is flickering and it is really giving me the creeps. So Long...

grunge028 @ 2002-01-25T21:34:00

2002-01-26T02:49:07Z

Hello
Today was a really fun day. The day started really early for me. First William, Josh, and Mike cut school and were supposed to come over my house at 10, but they are idiots and did not plan the time out well so they made it my house at 9. I was in the shower so my dad opens the door and says, "Are you cutting" and they reply "yes" so my dad says "Come In", yea that was cool. So basically it was William, Josh, Mike, and Nick came also but he didn't have school. So we were sitting in my room waiting for Soundgarden and Silverchair to play on old episodes of Saturday Night Live. So at about 1 45 we left ny house to go to the video game store just to look around and kill some time. Then we went across the street to pick up rob from school. Rob was trying to act cool so he started picking on this fat 7th grader and then this kid took Rob and threw him on the floor. After that whole thing we went to the bus stop and took it back to Douglaston. We walked to the Comic Shop and then Music Zoo. That was cool, so then we walked back and meet up with Johnathen, Scott, and Mike. So we all went to the garage to listen to some music that was pretty cool. Then it got boring so went down to Emily's and picked up Jordan and Angelo. So Angelo, Jordan, and I walked down to Burger King. Then Ryan and his skater friends came. so we continued to eat and then Johnathen, Will, Scott, and Paul showed up. So the scene was getting boring so we left but only William and Johnathen came with me. We went back to Robs house but and listened to some old tunes, that was fun. Christina was supposed to hang out with me today because i haven't seen her in the longest time, but she had to go to New Jersey. Now I am sitting in my room and Rob followed me home so i guess he is sleeping over. It looks like i have a lot of friends but i am not to friendly/close with much of these people.

grunge028 @ 2002-01-24T20:24:00

2002-01-25T01:24:43Z

Good Evening
TRUE! --nervous --very, very dreadfully nervous I had been and am; but why will you say that I am mad? The disease had sharpened my senses --not destroyed --not dulled them. Above all was the sense of hearing acute. I heard all things in the heaven and in the earth. I heard many things in hell. How, then, am I mad? Hearken! and observe how healthily --how calmly I can tell you the whole story.

It is impossible to say how first the idea entered my brain; but once conceived, it haunted me day and night. Object there was none. Passion there was none. I loved the old man. He had never wronged me. He had never given me insult. For his gold I had no desire. I think it was his eye! yes, it was this! He had the eye of a vulture --a pale blue eye, with a film over it. Whenever it fell upon me, my blood ran cold; and so by degrees --very gradually --I made up my mind to take the life of the old man, and thus rid myself of the eye forever.

Now this is the point. You fancy me mad. Madmen know nothing. But you should have seen me. You should have seen how wisely I proceeded --with what caution --with what foresight --with what dissimulation I went to work! I was never kinder to the old man than during the whole week before I killed him. And every night, about midnight, I turned the latch of his door and opened it --oh so gently! And then, when I had made an opening sufficient for my head, I put in a dark lantern, all closed, closed, that no light shone out, and then I thrust in my head. Oh, you would have laughed to see how cunningly I thrust it in! I moved it slowly --very, very slowly, so that I might not disturb the old man's sleep. It took me an hour to place my whole head within the opening so far that I could see him as he lay upon his bed. Ha! would a madman have been so wise as this, And then, when my head was well in the room, I undid the lantern cautiously-oh, so cautiously --cautiously (for the hinges creaked) --I undid it just so much that a single thin ray fell upon the vulture eye. And this I did for seven long nights --every night just at midnight --but I found the eye always closed; and so it was impossible to do the work; for it was not the old man who vexed me, but his Evil Eye. And every morning, when the day broke, I went boldly into the chamber, and spoke courageously to him, calling him by name in a hearty tone, and inquiring how he has passed the night. So you see he would have been a very profound old man, indeed, to suspect that every night, just at twelve, I looked in upon him while he slept.

Upon the eighth night I was more than usually cautious in opening the door. A watch's minute hand moves more quickly than did mine. Never before that night had I felt the extent of my own powers --of my sagacity. I could scarcely contain my feelings of triumph. To think that there I was, opening the door, little by little, and he not even to dream of my secret deeds or thoughts. I fairly chuckled at the idea; and perhaps he heard me; for he moved on the bed suddenly, as if startled. Now you may think that I drew back --but no. His room was as black as pitch with the thick darkness, (for the shutters were close fastened, through fear of robbers,) and so I knew that he could not see the opening of the door, and I kept pushing it on steadily, steadily.

I had my head in, and was about to open the lantern, when my thumb slipped upon the tin fastening, and the old man sprang up in bed, crying out --"Who's there?"

I kept quite still and said nothing. For a whole hour I did not move a muscle, and in the meantime I did not hear him lie down. He was still sitting up in the bed listening; --just as I have done, night after night, hearkening to the death watches in the wall.

Presently I heard a slight groan, and I knew it was the groan of mortal terror. It was not a groan of pain or of grief --oh, no! --it was the low stifled sound that arises from the bottom of the soul when overcharged with awe. I knew the sound well. Many a night, just at midnight, when all the world slept, it has welled up from my own bosom, deepening, with its dreadful echo, the terrors that distracted me. I say I knew it well. I knew what the old man felt, and pitied him, although I chuckled at heart. I knew that he had been lying awake ever since the first slight noise, when he had turned in the bed. His fears had been ever since growing upon him. He had been trying to fancy them causeless, but could not. He had been saying to himself --"It is nothing but the wind in the chimney --it is only a mouse crossing the floor," or "It is merely a cricket which has made a single chirp." Yes, he had been trying to comfort himself with these suppositions: but he had found all in vain. All in vain; because Death, in approaching him had stalked with his black shadow before him, and enveloped the victim. And it was the mournful influence of the unperceived shadow that caused him to feel --although he neither saw nor heard --to feel the presence of my head within the room.

When I had waited a long time, very patiently, without hearing him lie down, I resolved to open a little --a very, very little crevice in the lantern. So I opened it --you cannot imagine how stealthily, stealthily --until, at length a simple dim ray, like the thread of the spider, shot from out the crevice and fell full upon the vulture eye.

It was open --wide, wide open --and I grew furious as I gazed upon it. I saw it with perfect distinctness --all a dull blue, with a hideous veil over it that chilled the very marrow in my bones; but I could see nothing else of the old man's face or person: for I had directed the ray as if by instinct, precisely upon the damned spot.

And have I not told you that what you mistake for madness is but over-acuteness of the sense? --now, I say, there came to my ears a low, dull, quick sound, such as a watch makes when enveloped in cotton. I knew that sound well, too. It was the beating of the old man's heart. It increased my fury, as the beating of a drum stimulates the soldier into courage.

But even yet I refrained and kept still. I scarcely breathed. I held the lantern motionless. I tried how steadily I could maintain the ray upon the eve. Meantime the hellish tattoo of the heart increased. It grew quicker and quicker, and louder and louder every instant. The old man's terror must have been extreme! It grew louder, I say, louder every moment! --do you mark me well I have told you that I am nervous: so I am. And now at the dead hour of the night, amid the dreadful silence of that old house, so strange a noise as this excited me to uncontrollable terror. Yet, for some minutes longer I refrained and stood still. But the beating grew louder, louder! I thought the heart must burst. And now a new anxiety seized me --the sound would be heard by a neighbour! The old man's hour had come! With a loud yell, I threw open the lantern and leaped into the room. He shrieked once --once only. In an instant I dragged him to the floor, and pulled the heavy bed over him. I then smiled gaily, to find the deed so far done. But, for many minutes, the heart beat on with a muffled sound. This, however, did not vex me; it would not be heard through the wall. At length it ceased. The old man was dead. I removed the bed and examined the corpse. Yes, he was stone, stone dead. I placed my hand upon the heart and held it there many minutes. There was no pulsation. He was stone dead. His eve would trouble me no more.

If still you think me mad, you will think so no longer when I describe the wise precautions I took for the concealment of the body. The night waned, and I worked hastily, but in silence. First of all I dismembered the corpse. I cut off the head and the arms and the legs.

I then took up three planks from the flooring of the chamber, and deposited all between the scantlings. I then replaced the boards so cleverly, so cunningly, that no human eye --not even his --could have detected any thing wrong. There was nothing to wash out --no stain of any kind --no blood-spot whatever. I had been too wary for that. A tub had caught all --ha! ha!

When I had made an end of these labors, it was four o'clock --still dark as midnight. As the bell sounded the hour, there came a knocking at the street door. I went down to open it with a light heart, --for what had I now to fear? There entered three men, who introduced themselves, with perfect suavity, as officers of the police. A shriek had been heard by a neighbour during the night; suspicion of foul play had been aroused; information had been lodged at the police office, and they (the officers) had been deputed to search the premises.

I smiled, --for what had I to fear? I bade the gentlemen welcome. The shriek, I said, was my own in a dream. The old man, I mentioned, was absent in the country. I took my visitors all over the house. I bade them search --search well. I led them, at length, to his chamber. I showed them his treasures, secure, undisturbed. In the enthusiasm of my confidence, I brought chairs into the room, and desired them here to rest from their fatigues, while I myself, in the wild audacity of my perfect triumph, placed my own seat upon the very spot beneath which reposed the corpse of the victim.

The officers were satisfied. My manner had convinced them. I was singularly at ease. They sat, and while I answered cheerily, they chatted of familiar things. But, ere long, I felt myself getting pale and wished them gone. My head ached, and I fancied a ringing in my ears: but still they sat and still chatted. The ringing became more distinct: --It continued and became more distinct: I talked more freely to get rid of the feeling: but it continued and gained definiteness --until, at length, I found that the noise was not within my ears.

No doubt I now grew very pale; --but I talked more fluently, and with a heightened voice. Yet the sound increased --and what could I do? It was a low, dull, quick sound --much such a sound as a watch makes when enveloped in cotton. I gasped for breath --and yet the officers heard it not. I talked more quickly --more vehemently; but the noise steadily increased. I arose and argued about trifles, in a high key and with violent gesticulations; but the noise steadily increased. Why would they not be gone? I paced the floor to and fro with heavy strides, as if excited to fury by the observations of the men --but the noise steadily increased. Oh God! what could I do? I foamed --I raved --I swore! I swung the chair upon which I had been sitting, and grated it upon the boards, but the noise arose over all and continually increased. It grew louder --louder --louder! And still the men chatted pleasantly, and smiled. Was it possible they heard not? Almighty God! --no, no! They heard! --they suspected! --they knew! --they were making a mockery of my horror!-this I thought, and this I think. But anything was better than this agony! Anything was more tolerable than this derision! I could bear those hypocritical smiles no longer! I felt that I must scream or die! and now --again! --hark! louder! louder! louder! louder!

"Villains!" I shrieked, "dissemble no more! I admit the deed! --tear up the planks! here, here! --It is the beating of his hideous heart!"

grunge028 @ 2002-01-23T23:24:00

2002-01-24T04:55:42Z

Hello
You have to look at this conversation with one of my old friends...

Girl: hey u
Me: Whats up
Girl: nothing really u?
Me: I was right by your house today
Girl: really?
Girl: i went to the mall with my girl and some friends cuz its her b day and i gave her $200 to go shopping
Girl: so we were there from like 12 to like 7
Me: yea...i was going to ring your doorbell to say hi becuase i haven't seen you in the longest time
Me: your girl?
Girl: yeah
Me: you have a girl?
Girl: yes i have a girl
Me: since when
Girl: umm october 13th
Me: Wait i think i am missing something, you have a girl friend
Girl: yes
Me: But correct me if i am wrong, aren't you a girl
Girl: wow i thought every1 knew i guess not
Me: So how long have you been, you know a lesbian
Girl: lolZ i dunno if u see her i guess ull understand
Girl: she looks like a dude
Me: are you serious
Me: she looks like a guy
Girl: yupp
Girl: shes like a thug and well now she cut her hair and its sipkey
Girl: which makes her look like a complete guy
Girl: but i like it
Me: Why don't you just go after a real guy
Girl: i think she looks hot.... b/c i love her
Girl: i love guys with long hair also
Me: wait i thought you like girls with short hair
Me: now you are confusing me
Girl: i like well so far 1 girl and i still like guyz

grunge028 @ 2002-01-23T18:04:00

2002-01-23T23:23:07Z

Hey God, why are you doing this to me?
Am i not living up to what i'm supposed to be?
Why am i seething with this animosity?
Hey God, i think you owe me a great big apology

Hey God, I really don't know what you mean
Seems like salvation comes only in our dreams
I feel my hatred grow all the more extreme
Hey God, can this world really be as sad as it seems

Hey God, there's nothing left for me to hide
I lost my ignorance, security and pride
I'm all alone in a world you must despise
Hey God, i believed your promises, your promises and lies

grunge028 @ 2002-01-23T15:39:00

2002-01-23T21:29:53Z

Hello
Well today was a day to be remembered. Let me start from the beginning of the day and give a step by step introduction. First woke up at 9 30 and took a quick shower. Then at about 10 30 I ran to my school just to drop something off at the guidance counselor and then made a quick run to the bagel store to pick up some bagels for my mother. I got back into my house at like 10 50 and then quickly ate breakfast. By 11 Danny and I were out of the house. Danny and I walked over to Marisa house and picked her up. Then from there we walked to Starbucks were i picked up a Cappuccino. From there we picked up the Q30 and took it back to my old neighborhood, Douglaston. By the time we got there it was 12. So we walked up to my old school so we can see my friends and laugh at them while they are in school. So first we try to go through the front, we made it to the school yard and then one security lady told us to leave. So now we are getting escorted out of there by a different security lady. So we just decided to walk around to get to the back. So now we are in the back of the school and its the end of 6th grade lunch so I did not know anyone. So then a few minutes later it was 8th grade lunch, so we were getting kind of bored because we still had to wait another period until 9th grade lunch. So we decided to play some hacky sack. All of a sudden Emily says "hello" to me and then i just remembered that i do know someone in the 8th grade. So then 8th grade goes in and now the 9th grade is coming out, and Mike and Josh are there. So in about 15 minutes the whole 9th grade is outside and i am looking around and the whole 9th grade is less than 100 people. So we go inside the back yard, and this kid who i have past problems with starts saying shit to me, but of course i don't say anything back because i was afraid, not of him but of his friends and what they would of done. Marisa starts saying crap to him and almost got me beat up. I got to start standing up for myself more often. Well after the 9th grade went in, we went to McDonalds and then to Danny's house were his mother gave us a ride home. So now i am here sitting in my room eating bread like a prisoner to his on mind. I just wish for one second i can see the ending of my story...

grunge028 @ 2002-01-23T00:33:00

2002-01-23T05:52:30Z

Hello
Finally i get Live Journal to work. Ok so in total today was a good day i guess. At about 8 30 Erica and Marisa call me and want to come over...I would of said yes if i didn't have family over, so i called back at like 9 30 but it was to late. Sorry again. Right now Danny is over, i guess he decided to sleep over and now i have to listen to him complaining about his neck. We are watching the Crow. One of the greatest movie i mite add. So tommorrow i am going to go to MS 67 and look at everyone in school, that should be some fun. Whats with these comments, seriously if you are going to comment i will like to hear who its from instead of leaving it anonymous. Well now the Crow is almost done and i have to decide what movie to put on...American Beauty or Memento?

grunge028 @ 2002-01-22T22:07:00

2002-01-23T03:15:07Z

Hello
My Live Journal is messed up. I will put another entry in later if i can get it working...

grunge028 @ 2002-01-22T17:48:00

2002-01-22T22:57:54Z

Hello
I like reading the comments, it makes me feel like people are interested in my life. So i went to the Army Navy store and it was good i guess, it took awhile to get there. Danny's mother did not know how to get there. Now i am at home bored as can be and Danny is playing Grand Theft Auto 3 and Boy Meets World is on in a half hour. I am glad to see that everyone lately has been calling me cute. Oh yea and these entries with Danny in them, is a different Danny then Erica's Danny. Just wanted to clear that up.

grunge028 @ 2002-01-22T09:43:00

2002-01-22T14:54:09Z

Good Morning
I have not been able to sleep lately for a few reasons. One, I need a new Shade in my room because its way to bright in the morning, Two, Its hard to sleep while your mother is always on the phone, and Three, I have alot on my mind lately. So today looks like an interesting day. Danny, His Mother, My Mother, and I are going to a Army - Navy Store at about 12 O'clock. So maybe i will get something there. Then after we get back from that my cousin is coming over for dinner tonight. So today seems like it will be pretty good. Right now i am trying to decide what should I do, either play Grand Theft Auto 3, Download a Sonic Youth and a Lynard Skynard album, or watch crappy daytime TV. I will probably go download some music. Now that i think of it most of my friends are in school right now...That sucks for them.

grunge028 @ 2002-01-21T18:13:00

2002-01-21T23:33:12Z

Hello
Well after taking that insanity test, which said i can not deal with reality which to tell the truth is 100 percent correct but we wil not get into that. At about 1 o'clock Marisa and I went to play some pool for an hour. That was fun, she is really good. Then we went to go but tickets for "A Beautiful Mind" but we still had about an hour to kill before the movie started. So we just walked around in K-Mart, looking at the movies. Marisa ended up buying "Dazed n' confused" and "Office Space." The line to buy the movies was way to long. So we finally get out of K-Mart and go to the movie. We walk into the theater and it was packed, there was no seats. So we walked to the second row to sit down, but while we were walking i sort of noticed that it seemed that we were the only people there under 50. So the previes start and all of a sudden Alice and Mike (I think his name was) pop out of nowhere. So they decided to sit with us. Mike or whatever his name was is really loud but funny. So were watching the movie and it was really good but my neck was killing me from looking up at the screen. So the movie is over and it actually turned out to be a really good movie. Yea i really liked the movie except for the fact that we were sitting way to close. So we leave the theater and it is freezing out, so all four of us walk to the corner by K-Mart and then Mike and Alice wanted to go in, but i had to go home, so Mike ended up dragging Marisa in so i had to walk home by myself but it was ok, I didn't mind at all. So i get home and i take a slice up cold pizza, it was better than i thought it was going to be. Well now i am watching Wonder Years, yes for those people not firmilar with Wonder Years its the more mature version of Boy Meets World. Kevin in Wonder Years and Cory in Boy Meets World are really brothers in real life. This has been another one of Derek's epic entries.

grunge028 @ 2002-01-21T11:56:00

2002-01-21T17:00:34Z

I just took this test, and they say i have problems dealing with reality...Please, post a comment and tell me if i really do...

What Psych-Ward do you belong to?

grunge028 @ 2002-01-20T23:28:00

2002-01-21T04:38:11Z

Hello
Its sunday night and i have no school this week!!! The best part of not having school this week is that my friends in MS67 do have school. Enough of that lets talk about today...First Robert picked me up at my house about 12 and then we went to Josh's house and Mike was there. So Josh, Mike, Rob, and I decided to go down to Jordans house becuase Daniel was there...So we started walking, and now that i think about it the whole day we did not make fun of each other. Ok, so we got to Jordan's and rang his doorbell and his brother answered the door and then we went in his house...In within a half hour we were out.lol. So we just basically hung out the whole day, and made our ways over to Robs house to watch Fast and the Furious...Last time i saw that movie i thought it was good, now seeing it a second time i find out that the acting is terrible but whatever. Right before the movie is over my mother beeps me to tell me that she is tired and wants me to take the bus home. So i left Rob's house and made my way to the bus stop, it was cold out. So i am standing at the bus stop and you know its a sunday so the bus only runs 3 times an hour, so i have about a 20 minute wait...So this kid starts talking to me at the bus stop but i don't remember what he said. So i finally got home and i didn't feel that well, so i took alittle nap until 9 30...Then went back on the internet to talk to some people i guess. Yes, that was my exciting day, Oh yea before i go...Why doesn't anybody post comments, I want to see some feedback.lol.

grunge028 @ 2002-01-19T19:57:00

2002-01-20T02:05:43Z

I took this Quiz off of Marissa's Live Journal...I thought that i have about an hour or two to kill so i mite as well do this Quiz...

1. What is your full name? Derek Andrew Fox
2. Hair color? Brown
3. Birthdate? 05/11/87
4. Eye color? Brown
5. Age? 14
6. Height? 5'7
7. Do you wear contacts? No
8. Siblings and their ages? No
9. What school do you attend? Francis Lewis High School
10. Who do you consider your close friends? I don't have so many
11. What's the best advice given to you? "Its better to be hated for who you are than loved for who you're not." -Philgoston Verdgris
12. What do you want to be when you grow up? Musician
13. What are your future goals? To become a Musician
14. Fave music? Grunge Rock
15. Fave food? Chinesse
16. Who is the funniest person you know? William
17. Fave movie? Godfather Part 1
18. Fave day of the week? Thursday
19. Fave month? April
20. Fave girls perfume? How am i supposed to know
21. Fave men's cologne? That cheap one...Yea that one
22. Do you like to dance? No
23. Are you shy to ask someone out? Yea
24. If you could change your name what would it be? Vladamir
25. Worst sickness you ever had? Mono...Actually it wasn't so bad
26. Have you ever been in love? No
27. What is the stupidest thing you ever done? That thing that day...How am i supposed to remember
28. What is your first son's name going to be? Myles
29. What is your first daughter's name going to be? Topanga
30. Scary or happy movies? Scary
31. On the phone or in person? Person
32. Day or night? Night
33. Summer or winter? Summer
34. Lust or love? Love
35. Hugs or kisses? Kisses
36. If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be? Personality...Yes, its a broad area
37. Do you consider cheerleading a sport? Only on weekends
38. What did you think of this survey? So far its...ok
39. Do you want your friends to write back? To what?
40. Who is least likely to respond? Where do you get these questions?

~*ARE YOU A.............*~*
1.Wuss: Sometimes
2.Class Clown: Not at all
3.Goodie 2 Shoes: No
4.Angel: No
5.Nerd: Yes

*~*IN THE PAST WEEK, HAVE YOU*~*
1.Cried? No
2.Not known the answer in class? Yea
3.Cut your hair? No
4.Worn a skirt? Yea...What do you think...No
5.Been mean? Maybe
6.Been sarcastic? Yea
7.Gone for a walk? Yea
8.Gone out for dinner? No
9.Met someone new? No
10.Said "I love you"?: No
11.Taken a test? TO MANY
12.Missed someone? Yea
13.Fought with your parents? lol
14. Had a nightmare? Yea

*WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU*
1.Showered? This Morning
2.Are you lonely? When was the last time you are lonely? Tha doesn't make sense...
3.Are you hungry? Same with this one
4.Are you talking to someone online? No

*~*THE FEELINGS SIDE*~*
1.What do you feel about the Ouija board? Never tried
2.Best feeling in the world: Watching Boy Meets World while eating pizza and thiking about the old days
3.Are you a health freak? No

~*~The PAST Side~*~
1.Memory [thing] you miss most? Yea
2.Memory you would like to forget?
3.Occupation: Student
4.Where will you live? I don't know
5.What are you doing tomorrow? I don't know

~*~Favorites~*~
1.Shampoo: That Herbal one
2.Toothpaste: Crest
3.Soap/bodywash: Where do you get these stupid questions from
4.Type of soup: Minestrone
5.TV Show: Boy Meets World
6.Song: You can not ask that question, what does one base his answer one?
7.Coffee or hot chocolate? Coffee, Only Starbucks tho
8.Big or little? Big or Little what?
9.Lace or satin? What?
10.Red or blue? Red
11.New or old? Old
12.Dawson's Creek or Party of Five? Twilight Zone
13.Neve Campbell or Jennifer Love Hewitt? Danielle
14.Old Madonna or new Madonna? What do you think?
15.Vogue or Material girl? Can you Repeat the Bloody question
16.Jeans or Cords? Jeans, but they have to be blue, yes blue
17.Sweater or sweatshirt? Sweatshirt
18.Pencil or pen? Pen
19.T-shirt or tank top? T-Shirt
20.Skanky or sketchy? Yea...
21.Skirt or dress? Ok, now thats just wrong
22.Stripes or solid? Solid
23.Wool or cotton? Cotton
24.Rose or Lily? Rose
25.Private school or pubic school? Public
26.Hot chocolate, strawberry, or plain milk? are we talking about milk?
27.Spring or fall? Spring
28.History or science? History
29.Favorite Smell: Not sure
30.If you could meet one person dead or alive who would it be? Kurt Cobain
31.Who are your friends? My friends
32.Do you have a best friend? I guess
33.Who do you go to for advice? Myself, I don't have someone like that
34.Who do you get the most surveys from? This is my first
35.Who are you jealous of? Can't say
36.People I trust: Its hard to trust people
37.Do you ever dance around naked? lol, Notice i didn't answer, lol
38.Favorite candle scent? Beached Whale
39. Item of under clothing (panties, corset, preferably something you own or have seen): Why am i getting the idea that this is a girls survey
40. Website: Yahooo, it gives you everything
41. Website host: Road Runner
42. Ghost story from literature: Not sure
43. Ghost story from experience: Not sure
44. Astrologist: Not sure
45. Photographer: Not sure
46. Artist: Nirvana
47. Actress: Don't have
48. Actor: ALOT
49. Singer: Kurt Cobain
50. Band: How many times do i have to tell you NIRVANA
51. Book: Hamlet
52. Author: edgar Allan Poe
53. Where'd #20 go?: what?
54. What's the craziest thing you've ever done naked? Shower
55. Who do you want to help right now? With what?
56. Who do you want to make feel better? Myself
57. Who do you want to make monkey love to? lol
59. How about common sense? What? who ever wrote this survey has to think of better questions
60. Describe the perfect relationship in one word: Trust
61. Describe the perfect outfit in two words: Jeans, Shirt
62. Describe the perfect sex style in 3 words: lol
63. Do you like llamas? Only on Monday
64. How about emus? Tuesday
65. How often do you daydream? All the time
66. Do you wear underwear? Yes
67. What's the last sweet thing someone said to you? That i am sweet
68. What's the last mean thing someone said to you? I am not sure
69. What's the last sound you heard? My music
70. What's the last noise you made? My guitar
71. Define the word wiggle: shaking?
72. Are you nice to janitors? Never met a real one
73. Do you dream in color or black and white? Color
74. Do you dream in first person (through your own eyes)? Yea
75. Do you dream in third person (like through a cameras eyes)? No
76. How often do you dream? Every Day
77. Do your dreams come true? Hell No
78. Have you ever had lucid dreams? Lucid?
79. How about sleep paralysis? Yea
80. Do you have nightmares often? Sometimes
81. Wet dreams? Yes...everynight...lol what do you think?
82. Dreams involving Billy Idol? BILLY
83. Best story about you as a baby? that vaccum

*~*Word Association*~*
1. Male nurse: White
2. Trauma: huh
3. Sex: lol, seriously laughing
4. Blood: Red
5. Therapy: Psycho
6. Plague: Bad
7. God: Heaven
8. Satan: Hell
9. Heaven: God
10. Hell: Satan

*~*You*~*

Profession: Student
Height: 5'7
Distinguishing marks: No
Allergies: No
Lucky number: 28
A smell that makes you pause: Coffee
A taste that makes you melt: Chesse Cake
A hobby that occupies your time: Music
A city you'd like to visit: Seattle
A country you'd like to explore: Say "Piece of Pie" isn't it relaxing
Your favorite meal: Dinner
A drink you order most often: Coke Cola
A delicious desert: Chesse Cake
The music you prefer while alone: Lonely Music
While at a party: Never go to Parties
A film you could watch over and over: Detriot Rock City
A TV show you watch regularly: Boy Meets World
A monument you would like to have a view of from your room: Space Neddle
Your favorite time of the day: 7
Your favorite place to sit at home: My chair

*~*Your stuff*~*

You live in a(n): House
Your transportation: Bus
You approx. annual income: 20 dollars a week
Your cologne or perfume: None
Under your bed or in your closet you hide: Clothes
Something important on your night table: Remember that show Happy Days, that was a great show
If you had a safe, in it you would keep: Somehting Important
You collect: Records
You don't have a lot of: Money
Your strangest possession: My computer
Your most expensive possession: Guitar
Your most prized possession: Guitar
If your house was burning and you could only save three things, they would be: Guitar

grunge028 @ 2002-01-18T22:12:00

2002-01-19T03:14:10Z

Hello
Today was an interesting day. Today i was in school boring as can be. Then after school i meet Danny at Prep and we took the bus to Music Zoo were i meet up with Mike, Daniel, Josh, Kerry, and William. I only hung out with them for an half hour while Danny was in drum lessons. Then danny and I hung out and found Stella, and we hung with him for alittle while. Then Danny, Rob, and i went back to my house and now Danny just left and Rob is sleeping over. Now i am here in an agrument with my mother and Rob is in the middle of it, Trying to help me i guess. So in total during the day was good, night was fun, and all up to this point was good until now...

grunge028 @ 2002-01-17T21:24:00

2002-01-18T02:20:41Z

Hello
I am tired of being a intellectual nothing. People treat me like i am nothing, like i can not take care of myself. Kids pick on me and the teachers stick up for me like i can't do anything. Well one day i am going to do something that is going to effect everyone around me and those people who are having fun at my pain will suffer one of these days. I just wanted to get that out, but besides that today was a good day i guess. Took a few tests, talked to Ashlee in Gym, Hung out with Hugh and Spiro at lunch, and here i am now, just got off the phone with Erica. Tommorrow is Friday and i will probably hang out in my old neighborhood and then i have 11 days off. I will leave you with this quote "Its better to be hated for who you are than loved for who you're not."

grunge028 @ 2002-01-16T17:40:00

2002-01-16T22:44:43Z

Hello...Today was a normal day full of boring stuff. After school i went to hang out for like a half an hour. Then came home and played some online Pool, which is really fun. I will probably have some more interesting things to write soon but for now nothing...

grunge028 @ 2002-01-16T17:34:00

2002-01-16T22:37:44Z

Hello...